I left Nashville in blinding rain. The sky completely closed off & forbidden. On each side of the road, cars twisted & bent from slamming into another unexpectedly. Going too fast. Following too close. The thought persisted that the rain would let up. Soon I would see the sky.
Read MoreNashville, TN
This is what my life is like & I bring it with me. Cormac McCarthy’s The Orchard Keeper. A Winged Victory for the Sullen & I am looking up the word: coruscant. I am enamored w McCarthy: Through the leaves of the hardwoods he could see the zinc-colored roof of the church faintly coruscant and a patch of boarded siding weathered the paper-gray of a waspnest. I pull into East Nashville & park in the parking lot of The Turnip Truck & go inside where I find things I am familiar with & put them in a basket & happily pay for them. The check-out woman calls me honey & baby & tells me her children won’t eat McDonalds & she is proud of them. I am proud of them too.
Read MoreMy wife hates landscapes & long books.
I imagine her rewritten as a dark-eyed junco
In the snow under the shadow of a large spruce,
Her wing extended harbouring a solitary fledgeling,
Which is unusual, thin legs of weeds & grass dangle
From the point of her exquisite & delicate beak.
Read MoreDaily routine in the Catskills:
Check the WIFI connection.
Duck & dodge The American Beech,
Musclewood & Birch eventually blown down,
Besieged in barrage of ice & wind.
Electricity comes & goes
& there is a waiting that occurs
That is central to the heart
Of insignificance & distraction.
Read MoreThe white table glows in the room
& on the table there is a camera:
A Hasselblad from Gothenburg,
Sweden, blessed w The Gota Alv,
Best known for industry & trade,
& served as model & inspiration for
The Pony Express snaking its way
From St. Joseph, Missouri
Through Olef Bergstrom’s Nebraska
to Sacramento, California
Where I drove a 1974 Volvo
Into the ground…
I’ve been @ The London Motel for three days
In the corner room that looks out over Freeway 99
& I see-saw from window to peephole
To see who is wandering by out on the street.
An Endless Parade of Motherfuckers
In the words of Michael Chabon
Who was writing about Berkeley
Which isn’t far from here but might as well be…
My daughter was four when we were attacked
By wasps in the front yard of our house
in Upstate New York
Where we weathered the early years of her life,
The Pandemic & my father’s death.
Read MoreI slam the fifty down above the left corner pocket of the black Dynamo right in the face of the guy drawing back to take a shot. “Fifty bucks for next. Here’s another twenty says you miss that shot.”
Quinn leans like a dark totem in the corner. She is slumped over & smoking & the smoke is everywhere all around her. She has on the wobbly table in front of her: Empties. Shot glasses & pint glasses. She is holding a pint in the hand that isn’t stove-piping the Pall Mall & it’s half full & she lifts it to her tortured lips & downs it & slams it back to the table scattering ashes from the heap of butts in the ashtray.
Read MoreHere’s how it is w fathers: Even after you have treated them like absolute shit & they, in turn, have been pretty hard on you & generally been someone you don’t like too much, they show up @ the ICU & wait in the waiting room looking worried as hell. They might even cry if you or anyone else was around to see it. Maybe they do anyway.
Not long after my mother died, she began to visit me frequently. There are many common misconceptions when it comes to, & pardon me for using this term, “paranormal activity” & one of them is ghosts, spectres, wraiths, phantoms & what-have-you only visit @ night. Or they arrive, when they do, w some cryptic message, some mystery for us to solve, some wrong to be righted. My experience has been a little different…
Read MoreEvery time I think back on it…everything was a mess.
Read MoreI was born @ Saint Agnes Hospital, August 2nd, 1969…
Read MoreWe drove out through the dust…
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