Like Spencer Short says, "There is nothing to not be amazed at". Everything is "not" the same. Madison is lakes & bricks & structures that are so aesthetically pleasing I feel like a dope. How can I be so young? I will be turning 45 on August 2...45!? It's like I am seeing the world for the first time. I lived in California all of my life. I have never traveled. Often I couldn't get out of my room. Soon I took my writing desk & pushed it against the door. It was not for writing it was a barricade. I came & went through the bedroom window. I put my cigarettes out on the floor. Last night I saw fireflies for the first time in my life. If I have seen them before I have no memory of it. I thought I was light-headed. I thought I was seeing things. Out of the corner of my eye, something blinked on, then off again. I stopped & squinted, then it happened again. & as my eyes adjusted, there they all were, a whole squadron of blinking lights turning circles in random patterns @ dusk.